Thursday, 31 December 2015

The pictures that made 2015

Like many other people on Blog-world at the end of each year  I go back and look for some photos that tell the story of our year.


 Here are just a few from 2015 


Crocuses in the kitchen early in the year

March and our first holiday for nearly 3 years, we climbed to the highest point on Exmoor
My 60th Birthday
Fresh from the poly-tunnel and garden in April

The arrival of the skip to clear the rubbish ready for putting the smallholding up for sale




Our eldest getting married in May



We bought a bargain caravan - off ebay for cheap holidays
Real frog meets stone frog in the garden sink-pond



The pest who pinched the walnuts


Townend my favourite NT house in the Lake District
End of an era, after 23 years, the very  last things that we put out for sale
The article in the East Anglian Daily Times that found us our buyer
The early Christmas family get together and our son-in-law and eldest daughter who are the parents to be next June


That was our year.

This year I found looking back very difficult, life seems upside down, so much has changed, there is much unknown ahead. We didn't know at the start of 2015 just how many health problems were going to appear or how serious they seem to be.
Financially it was a good year, my unexpected pension payout, the campsite income, selling our surplus at 3 car boot sales and the yard sale all boosted our income in a year when Col wasn't able to do the odd jobbing.
The garden was good in most parts and I have made a store of jams and chutneys to see us through the next couple of years.
We will have a new member of the family in June 2016 when our first Grandchild is due, which is exciting but I'm sad that we will have moved away from the smallholding and future grandchildren will never know what was here  and  that we kept goats and sheep and had all the fruit trees etc.
Then  our son and fiancee will be getting married in December  so that's another thing to look forward to
but we thought we would  have an opportunity to travel once we moved, but with illness - who knows. In March we climbed Dunkery Beacon on Exmoor but at the moment Col hasn't got enough energy for more than a short walk on level ground.
We don't know how we'll like living in town or if it's too big a change. Strangely our living costs will be more for a 2 bed bungalow in Ipswich than for our 4 bed home in the country - will we manage? Will our savings last until pension time.
As I said- upside down, topsy turvey and unsettling.

I'm struggling with blogging at the moment, there isn't much to write about here, whatever I mentioned over Christmas seemed to need justifying to someone in comments which gets a bit tedious or perhaps I'm feeling particularly sensitive.
So maybe I'll take a short break from blogging, perhaps for just a few days or maybe until  we know what Col's treatment will be. He has a bone marrow test mid month to confirm the diagnosis of  C.L.L ( Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia ) and then we will know what happens next.

Expect me when you see me!
Sue













64 comments:

  1. Never feel the need to justify yourself and your choices to anyone - I know it's hard though! All best wishes from me
    x

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  2. Oh wow, I wished I knew you through blogland before last March. I actually now live on the very edge of Exmoor!
    Julie xxxxxxxxx

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  3. I'll be here when you are xx love and light to you and yours Sue xx

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  4. You never need to justify yourself. I for one really enjoy your blog. Really hope all goes well and your move is successful. Good luck to Colin for his tests. Onwards and upwards. Hope you have a calm and happy new year.

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  5. Absolutely no need to feel you have to justify yourself, ever. You've had a very unsettling year, I hope the coming one is better for you both.

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  6. It's your blog (and you never preach on it) so never feel you have to justify yourself.

    Sorry to hear about the possible diagnosis for Col

    x

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  7. I will miss you the first blog i ever read i cooked many of your recipes
    and enjoy reading about your life on the small holding. Best Wishes to you both.Rose.

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  8. Going to echo some of the other comments and say you don't have to justify anything you choose to write about in YOUR blog. If people don't like it, well, there is a little red 'X', top right hand corner. Click & go!
    I'm sorry you have so much worry with Col's health. Hopefully 2016 will be a better year, health wise. And you certainly have a lot going on, lots to look forward to.

    I usually do a 12 photo montage, going through the year and choosing a pic for each month, but this year I didn't want to do that. Just a montage of photos I liked from the year, so I could avoid raking up painful memories. there have been some truly rotten things to deal with this year, so I am glad to give it the boot.

    Enjoy your blog break. But keep it short, eh? ;o)

    Happy 2016 to you and Col xx

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  9. I love reading your blog and will certainly keep reading if / when you feel ready to start-up again. Sending all my very best wishes to both you and Col for 2016.

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  10. Good luck for you both in the New Year, I too love reading your blog, it's honest and interesting and will be here when you next post.

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  11. I haven't commented before, but I just want to say how much I will miss reading your blog, I hope you are not away fof too long!!
    Wishing you all the best in 2016
    Hazel

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  12. I always read but don't always comment. I too enjoy reading your blog - the ups and downs of others lives, help me to out mine into perspective and to not feel so alone. Take a break if you like, but not because people 'judge'! Take care of yourselves and I wish you all the very best for the upcoming year :) x

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  13. I'm hoping for a good new year for you and Col Sue. The move to town will be a big change but I am very much hoping a good one.
    Keep strong.
    Happy New Year-x-

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  14. I read your blog with interest as I enjoy the things you write about especially the books. We never got to visit your wee campsite due to my DH's health problems last year butremember our invitation stands-we have a largedriveway and you can park your ' van anytime you venture up the M74 to Scotland. All the best to Col with his health and of course your news about a grandchild is just wonderful. Slainte Catriona

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  15. I didn't realise that Col was headed towards a possible diagnosis after his heart problems. I do hope he gets a diagnosis, good treatment and positive outcome. Blog as and when the mood takes you and never feel you have to justify anything to anyone.

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  16. Have been reading your blog everyday for a few months and very much enjoy it.
    Hope you will continue writing from your new home, will be very interested to read how you find the new bungalow and lifestyle in town and hopefully some photos.
    Best wishes to you and Colin.
    Please don't stay away to long x

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  17. I love your blog. I always find it very interesting and always pick up tips and helpful advice. I hope everything goes well for you both, especially with Col's health. Good luck. I'll be here ready to read whenever the time's right for you to pick up your blogging again.

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  18. Your mentioning the need to justify in comments brought back to me a saying from my mother. She used to tell me "those that matter understand and those that don't understand don't matter". In other words, no need to justify anything. I wish you well in the new year and send prayers for Col's good health.

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  19. Take care and happy new year tommorow to you both xx

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  20. I will miss your daily chats but fully unerstand. My best to you and Col in 2016 and beyond.

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  21. My thoughts are with you and Col and wishing you both all the best whatever the outcome of the tests. I've been there, had cancer, and now husband has prostate cancer (very early stage, no treatment for the moment), so I do know a little of what you are feeling right now. Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts.
    Margaret P

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  22. I have been redoing for months but never commented, just enjoyed reading. Probably like most of us. I do hope that the people who get a bit bossy online don't put you off. I think your readers feel a real affection for you and Col and admire your endeavours, and if people have issues with anything you do or say, they should just find another blog to read. My thoughts are with you. X

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  23. As someone has already commented yours is the first blog I read and the enjoyment it has given me cannot be quantified. I spent my working life in libraries of various kinds and our reading tastes are very similar. Your book "hauls" have led me to discover new and enjoyable authors as well as reminding me of others that I had neglected. Like you this last year has been a life changing one, my husband was diagnosed with heart failure in January, had a pacemaker/defibrillator fitted in June, suffered from a three week attack of gout that left him confined to bed (luckily when the rugby world cup was on) and just to round the year off nicely has been told he has cataracts starting to form and been diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes so, like you, we are looking forward to a more serene year in 2016. Here's hoping that things go well with you with Col's diagnosis and your move to town and remember everyone has a choice, they don't need to read you blog if they don't like what you say. All the best for the next year.

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  24. As someone has already commented yours is the first blog I read and the enjoyment it has given me cannot be quantified. I spent my working life in libraries of various kinds and our reading tastes are very similar. Your book "hauls" have led me to discover new and enjoyable authors as well as reminding me of others that I had neglected. Like you this last year has been a life changing one, my husband was diagnosed with heart failure in January, had a pacemaker/defibrillator fitted in June, suffered from a three week attack of gout that left him confined to bed (luckily when the rugby world cup was on) and just to round the year off nicely has been told he has cataracts starting to form and been diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes so, like you, we are looking forward to a more serene year in 2016. Here's hoping that things go well with you with Col's diagnosis and your move to town and remember everyone has a choice, they don't need to read you blog if they don't like what you say. All the best for the next year.

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  25. Happy New year old bean , hoping 2016 will be a cracker xxxxxxx

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  26. Oh Sue.... I hope that 2016 brings you a little break from some of your recent worries. When blogging feels more like a chore than a pleasure, it's definitely time to take a bit of a break. If you get the chance to let us know how things are going - that would be great. You know that I'm thinking of you! Jx

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  27. Sending you both lots of good wishes for the new year. I enjoy my visits here and I reckon there are hundreds more that do too, it's your blog so you can write what you like!
    Take care
    Lisa x

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  28. I will miss reading your blog, especially the book lists, I have got some great reads from them, I am also interested in the Hom Front. I hope that 2016 is kinder on you than this one has been. Good luck, don't stay away too long.x

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  29. I hope 2016 brings you some better news on the health front. As others have said you do not need to justifie yourself if people don't like it they don't have to read it as for me I look forward to your posts.

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  30. Hello Sue
    I have been reading you for a long time but have never commented before. Your blog brings so much pleasure and has helped with our planned move back to Suffolk when I retire. Hope 2016 is better for you both and the bungalow suits whilst Cols health problems are treated.
    Don't worry about having to justify yourself as your blog brings so much pleasure and is full is wisdom. Please return to writing when you feel able!
    Take Care
    Trudy

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  31. Don't be away too long, yours is the first blog I read each day.

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  32. I read your blog every day and never find you have nothing to say. Yours is the type of blog I love, that of every day life, warts and all, that you are willing to share with others.

    I'm truly sorry to hear that you and Col find yourselves waiting for confirmation of CLL. I assumed his health problems were to do with his heart.

    I thought about giving up blogging a few months ago but missed it. I found writing every day and seeing things in black and white actually helped me make sense of things. Hope you aren't away for too long.

    Best wishes for 2016 to you and Col xx

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  33. Beaming you love and support through the ether.

    We will be here when you come back.

    Sol xxx

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  34. I love your blog and will miss you.
    Very best wishes to you and Col for 2016.
    I wish you a peaceful and happy year ahead,troubles soothed away and all good things to look forward to.
    Love from Pam in TX.xx

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  35. I do hope that the diagnosis for Col will bring treatment and improvement and better times going forward. You never need to explain yourself in your blog, or the comments. If I get a comment and it is clearly vexatious then I just publish and ignore it, usually someone else will jump on it with no input needed from me! If it is downright rude or nasty then I press delete. You can delete a comment permanently and then nothing will ever show up on your blog - not even that a comment was removed. Your life is your life and what you share is your choice. I enjoy reading your blog and wish you a happy new year and all good things in 2016! You deserve a good one after 2015! xx

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  36. Hi Sue,
    I too get very unsettled when I know things are about to change; I am sure this time next year you will say it is the best thing you have ever done. Congratulations on your first grandchild, I am waiting for number 4 who is very reluctant to appear. I have read your blog over the last year, but have not commented as much as I usually read a group of posts at any time. We are still doing campsite work in the summer months, now for the CCC but are currently staying at Hertford site trying to get some temporary work. We are not sure how long we will continue with this type of work, we plan to have a year off either 2017 or 2018 for more European travel, but after that - who knows??
    Well, enjoy the peace of the next few days, and I hope that Col gets a very favourable diagnosis. Wishing you all the luck for 2016 and please don't stop telling us about your 'quiet' life. X

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  37. We, too, have had a horrendous year health wise and will be glad to see the back of 2015. Whenever you post I'll be there - best wishes to you and yours for 2016.
    xx

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  38. Take what time you need. I will be checking daily (your blog is part of my morning/early afternoon read) and will enjoy whatever you have to share.

    God bless.

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  39. I always read your blog and just wanted to say that I hope you carry on because I find your blog to be really helpful especially reading about your life and how well you live and save money when times are not easy - your blog is one of the few that is honest and true and doesn't claim to be frugal and then brag about how much money has been spent needlessly - I hope 2016 sees your husband feeling better soon - Happy New Year xx

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  40. Hi Sue, I so enjoy your blog (don't think I've ever commented before) and I don't technically follow any blogs but yours is one I've read faithfully for a year or more now.
    I'll be praying for you and Col. I went through surgery and chemo in 2014 and radiation early this year for a female cancer, but nonetheless, I certainly empathize with the possible diagnosis.
    Do what you need to and I'll be checking back for whenever you blog again. (and never mind the oddball commenters!!)
    Jo Ann

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  41. Wishing you all the best for 2016. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself, too. Pat

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  42. Wishing you all the best for 2016. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself, too. Pat

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  43. From a fellow Suffolk girl, just wanted to say I love your blog and tune in regularly. I love hearing about your life. I wish your husband good health in 2016 and a successful move to town. Hope you are back blogging soon (PS As all others have said, you don't need to justify yourself to ANYONE !)Wendy

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  44. Here's hoping that 2016 will become a better year

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  45. I love reading your blog Sue. I hope you come back soon.
    All best wishes to you and Col, I hope 2016 is a much better year for you both,

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  46. Lovely photos... I remember most from your posts this year, but must have missed the blog entry with the pic of your apples for sale. Like so many others have said, I enjoy and appreciate your blog. This must be an unsettling time for you and Col both, as I'm sure all your readers understand. Move is a four letter word. While you have a new grandchild and wedding to bring much joy, that move and waiting for a definitive diagnosis will be on your mind, too. Wishing you and your family only the very BEST in 2016. As they say, "hang in there"!

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  47. Yours is usually the first blog I read, each day; I will miss reading about your day when you take a break. As others have said, you don't need to justify anything. I really liked the year-end photo review, and might borrow that idea for my blog.

    I am sorry you are going through all the uncertainty and change brought about as a result of your husband's health. 2015 brought a breast cancer diagnosis for me and I, too, turned 60.

    Here's to 2016 - may it be a year of good health and peace and contentment for all of us.

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  48. Sue, I'm going to miss you until you come back. I like it better when you blog daily, and I'm sorry you're feeling down. I admire how quickly you made the big decisions this year and made the changes you need. We are looking at some big ones, too, but procrastinating. (Like we do everything). Best wishes to you and Col, and I hope for the best possible outcome in all things. New Year's greetings from northern Idaho, USA.

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  49. Take as long as you need but hopefully you will be back for all of us that truly enjoy your quiet life. Hopefully 2016 will be a better year.

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  50. I live state-side in Colorado and so enjoy your daily blog!!! count me in with the others who have commented here..I have learned a lot from you in many areas and hope you see how many,many people think vey highly of you and what you share..as we over here say"hang in there" and I hope all willultimately go well for both you and Col.Mary H

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  51. Having turned to your blog eagerly every morning since I discovered it you feel like extended family members. Please don't allow others to prevent you from blogging. I'm sure most of us just hope that Col's health improves and that 2016 will be the start of better times for you. I have a close friend who has the type of cancer he may have and having had treatment she is enjoying life again and building up her strength.
    As far as your future grandchildren are concerned wherever you are will be special to them.
    Who knows, maybe you will take them camping in the future!
    I am new to commenting but hope that you will continue to blog. I pray for each situation you find yourselves in. Please don't stop because you feel you blogs are boring. They are not!!! We all want to know how your move goes, how Col is, how you are coping and what books you are reading.
    Sue

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  52. I am so pleased that there is nearly a diagnosis - the waiting and guessing is the worst part.
    I hope 2016 brings all that you want it to and that Col gets the right treatment and your move goes smoothly.

    If you need any help give us a shout!

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  53. Please come back soon - I really enjoy your blog. Best wishes to Col. My husband had a bone marrow biopsy recently and while it was not nice it was good to get a diagnosis and treatment started. Thinking of you.

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  54. I have enjoyed reading your blog. for a few years now so please do not stop. Wishing for a successful outcome for your husbands medical treatment and that you can embrace your new future. Sarah. Dorset.

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  55. All the best to you and your husband - wishing you Health and many things to look forward to in 2016. Hope your husbands treatment will help him really quickly. Looking forward to reading your Blog in the Future!!

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  56. Just sending my good wishes for 2016. For better health and enough prosperity to see us all through!

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  57. Wishing you all the best in tricky times. Fingers crossed for Col's treatment. I enjoy reading your blog very much, whenever you might feel like writing it.

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  58. Sue, I hope and pray all goes well for you. Love your blog and completely understand how you feel. Take a break, as long as you need.....we will all be here when you return PROMISE.

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  59. We are both thinking of you as you venture forth into the new year and into the virtual unknown Sue and Col. I can understand that life is really hard going at present and that blogging is almost impossible. But be strong. We shall be thinking of you and wishing Col all the best. Love from us both.

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  60. I have read your blog for a long time, but rarely comment. I hope that Cols illness is at an early stage, and you get a good outcome. A new grandchild will be lovely, and something to look forward to. I hope 2016 is kind to you and all the moves etc go well. Best wishes to you and all your family. xx

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  61. Hi Sue, wishing you and Colin all the very best. I know exactly how you feel, ive had nearly 18 months feeling unsettled after returning home and trying to re establish and start a fresh. Hope all goes well next week. Chris

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  62. Take good care, we'll be waiting for you when you can come back. Good luck and good health to you all.

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  63. Been busy and just read this post...hope Colin gets all the best treatment and soon...big hugs. Jackie oxo

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  64. I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels as though I have to be constantly answering questions that make feel as though I'm justifying everything I do. It's just a few persistent commenters and it's driving me nuts!!

    I have loved reading your posts throughout this year and have been popping in as often as possible to check on the moving plans and Cols health problems. I'm glad you finally got a diagnosis, now at least you can move forward and get him the treatment he needs.

    He has done so much over the year despite his ill health, although doing less then he used to must be so frustrating for him and hard for you to watch his frustration.

    I hope the coming year is good for both of you and your family and that the move goes forward as smoothly as moves can.

    All the best. xx

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